Whoopie for me! This morning at exactly 7:10 I got a new girlfriend! Her name is Jazzmin and she's totaly coolness. Wanna ch ill with her on the break. I'll try to get some pix of her to show you guys that are curious, but... She's nothin like Brooke. I can be myself around her, wich is something I needed after all of the supression under Brooke's control.

I think this one might last a long while...

1. YOUR REAL NAME:

Tamara

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)

Tamizzle

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)

Saphire wolf

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)

Tamda

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)

Black Ramune

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)

Akanraota

7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)

i have NO idea. mum doesnt have a middle name and idk my dad's. prob Joseph

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)

Black Boomer

9. NINJA NAME: (First two letters of your first name added with Ruto)

Taruto

10. PIRATE NAME: (Your middle name after the word Captain)

Captain Ann

Ok, so as of right now I have NO idea when I will be on again after today. It depends on the mood of my English teacher. Apparently I was missing a works cited page for a paper so I got a 0, but she will CONSIDER changing it for me if i turn it in tomorow, most I can hope for is half credit it looks like. If she doesn't change it, I might get the internet taken away (or something like that, I'm not sure since I kinda need the internet for that class)

But I'm just letting you all know in case I don't get to your messages liek I usualy do.

Her: "Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! Guess what? Guess what? Guess what? Guess what?"
Me: "Should I ask? Or are you gonna tell me."
Her: "No, ask! Ask!"
Me: "What?"
Her: "I'm gonna have a new boyfriend! Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! His name is Issac, and he's realy sexy, and he's 17, and he's got a car, and he's got muscles, and he takes karati, and oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!"
Me: (thinking "Fuck, I hate it when she does this) "I already saw all of his pictures. He's not that hot. And I already knew all of that."
Her: "Well, it's his attitude I find hot."
Me: "I realy don't care."
Her: "Aw, are you jelous that you're still alone and that no one wants you?"

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Yeah.
Yeah that's it exactly you little bitch ass fucker! That's it EXACTLY! I'm TOTALY jelous of him! NO! I admit that I'm jelous of him, but it's not because of that! And even if it was, I'd never admit it to you because I know you'd just make fun of me for it! You don't call me for a God damn week and that's the first thing you think you should tell me is "I'm getting a new boyfriend!" when you know DAMN well that I'm still not over you?! No WONDER they called you a bitch! I didn't believe them! I thought "No, she's nice!" And now I know why they called you a bitch, you little fucker!

Damn it, I'm a fucking idiot. "We'll get back together, I'll let you know when I'm ready." And all that time and money I'd spent, everything I'd done leads up to this! Fuck that shit, I'm not waiting anymore. Fuck dating, man. I'm going out of the ring for a good while after this one.

part of me believes she's right. Maybe no one wants me after all? Maybe that's how it's ment to be? Maybe I'm ment to be alone? To be a failure at all things good? To constantly destroy everything I touch? Maybe that's my point in life. To burn all my bridges behind me? Sure could use a friend right now, but the only one I have is gone, and she's no help at all... I wish I knew just what to do...

I give you my innocence as a gift to be cherished. I truly believed you loved me then. Now the rose shows off its thorns, and all I wish to do is be a child again. But my innocence was given to you as a gift, and you tossed it aside saying it wasn't good enough. Now I wonder how much else was a lie from what you told me before.

Well, Brooke hasn't called me for i think two days now? Rather strange for her, but I guess she's got someone new to talk to non-stop. That or I just bore her, one of the two. Probably got a new boyfriend and she's too busy to talk to me, but whatever. Even if she's not, it's kinda nice to have the break from the constant chatter with her, ya know?

Twiggy's gone too. She was a dog that wandered into our yard, but animal control just came and got her picked up for us so we don't have to worry about her anymore, which is good for me because she jumped all over me. She started chewing up our stuff, too. Anything left outside she'd get at and chew up. Pissed that the Wii game Andrew lent me, Twilight Princess, won't read on my Wii. I think the disc is messed up because my other games work just fine

Kinda miss the endless chatter of Brooke. Now my afternoons are quiet and I don't know what to do with myself. Eh, I'll get used to it. Nothin good on T.V, and I do wish it would stop raining. They're saying it might snow tomorow. Oh how much fun will that be! Now I'm making myself depressed. Is it normal to be depressed on Christmas eve and Christmas day? I can't explain it, but those two days are the only days of the year that make me want to just curl up in my bed and mope/cry all day long. I don't know why, but it started up last year with me dredding the holidays. Most of them make me depressed, probably because I know that I'm not a kid anymore and my joy for those holidays are gone because of my new responsibility that I have to take up?

Ugh, this is more of a rant now. I fee like I'm waisting someone's time when I write like this, but it helps to get it all out, ya know? Like a long e-mail to a friend just to vent things. Oh well, that's all for right now I think.

Vent later!